ok so i know its been forever since i have wrote something.. not much has changed. still working on getting my firefighter 1 and 2s. and maybe one day get my emt certs. but anyway. I have a new job, and i am making the best money i have ever made in my life! I love it dont get me wrong, but the only problem is….the people, i work with. its a constant battle to try and befriend someone. I get made fun of almost everyday. and im getting sick of it. they call me stuff like to country for words, bible thumper, and alot of other stuff thats hurtful. sometimes i even wonder if my job is even worth it. what do you do when someone dose that stuff to you. i thought i was way past the freaking highschool crap. i even had a co worker come up to me and tell me if i didnt help her in a certain way that i was going to drive her crazy and that was one good way to get my @$$ kicked. Come on this is freaking ridiclous. im not afraid of anyone. im not afraid to speak my mind. why am i having problems now??? this makes no sense to me! I started to not care about anything.. go in do my 8 hours and come home. but what fun is that?? i think this job has even started to cause problems at home. and i cant be having that. my hubby dont need the stress of my work. but on a lighter note my hubby got a job interview with a better paying job thats actually like 10 mins down the road. so instead of driving 2 hours away for work he will be able to come home everynight! and that helps! cause when i have a bad day i would love to just run home to him and let him hold me until i felt calm.. instead of dealing with it on my own. but enough of my rant. i think i will get off of here and go to sleep, big day tomorrow at work :). Goodnight World.